Last night as Rachel and I were laying down to go to bed, the bottom of our bed frame snapped and we dropped about a foot. It was such long frustrating day but we some how managed to laugh about it. We pulled the mattress on to the floor and went to bed.

I had a hard time waking up. I just didn’t want to go to work. That’s when I realized that I need to start looking around for another job. I don’t want to hate waking up and going to work everyday.

What I don’t know is whether I should talk to Dan (the CEO) about it. There is part of me that wants to let him know about my frustration so we can resolve the issue. The other part of me doesn’t want to let him know for fear that he might just fire me. Generally I wouldn’t worry about getting fired but Dave Parkinson (a friend at work) told me that it is not a good time to talk to down because he has been saying things about me in a negative light.

I still don’t understand how things could go from great to miserable so fast.

Best news I had today was from the scale. I weighed 218 this morning. That is the lowest I have been in years. My goal was to get to 220, but I want to keep going now and see if I can get down to 200.